alex.

I was quite intimidated trying to introduce myself to the older students when I attended that first training on the Rubber Crumb but, to my surprise and relief, this blonde lad with an Arsenal top came up to me and asked what my name was. You had this disarming grin that put me at easeContinue reading “alex.”

the highs and the lows.

Having put my head down for a year to get the best out of the second chance that I had fashioned, we went on the trip of a lifetime to celebrate. The route through South-East Asia was well-documented and trampled by Western tourists such as ourselves, but it didn’t seem to have lost its wondrousContinue reading “the highs and the lows.”

stand with ukraine.

Like most people who had heard rumblings of Russian discontent towards the final stages of 2021, I could not have envisaged the humanitarian tragedy that has since unfolded in the early months of 2022. A new year should have brought with it optimism, possibility, and hope, but it has instead brought with it scenes moreContinue reading “stand with ukraine.”

covid crisis point.

Having evaded contracting the virulent driver of the pandemic for the past 18 months, I finally succumbed to COVID-19. The text message from the NHS informing me that my PCR came back positive was hardly a shocking revelation; with the new Omicron variant spreading through London like wildfire, it seemed like every man and hisContinue reading “covid crisis point.”

blue-eyed soul

In September 1978, Bobby Caldwell dropped his most famous and commercially successful single, ‘What You Won’t Do For Love’, a sensual, groovy R&B classic that has stood the test of time. I’ve been recently listening to his eponymous record and, much like many listeners both today and at the time the single was released, IContinue reading “blue-eyed soul”

jail tonight.

DONDA is here. After a number of delayed release dates and the typical circus theatrics that seem to accompany Kanye West at every step in recent times, the ecclesiastical, immersive project that he promised landed on streaming sites, honouring his late, great mother. Don’t get me wrong. The album is serially disjointed and has aContinue reading “jail tonight.”

orellana’s vision.

Francisco de Orellana was a Spanish explorer and conquistador, best known for traversing the entire length of the Amazon River against all odds in the 1540s. On arrival to this distant, mystical land, he saw the impossible before his eyes. Advanced civilisations within the Amazon, sprawling with millions of people and technologies previously unseen byContinue reading “orellana’s vision.”

eton mess & meritocracy.

In a time where we are starting to revisit and critically evaluate age-old narratives that have permeated the value system of our society, there are some ideas that just seem harder to shake off than others. ‘God is dead and we have killed him’ proclaimed Nietzche in the 1880s, with the literary works sprouting outContinue reading “eton mess & meritocracy.”

embracing the absurd.

There has been a considerable drought in my writing, searching for what is wrong with it all, the reason for which has been a combination of busy schedules, shifting priorities and, above all, contentment. After being stuck on transmit and in fifth gear for much of the last two months, I wanted to experience beingContinue reading “embracing the absurd.”

the juice ain’t worth the squeeze.

It takes a considerable degree of unlearning and unplugging to identify that satisfying our deepest cravings can create a cycle of repetitive harm. The scarcity of sugar in the natural world of our hunter-gatherer ancestors planted an evolutionary seed in their brains, leading them, and us in the modern day, to seek out and salivateContinue reading “the juice ain’t worth the squeeze.”

the great puzzle.

Turning a year older has, while losing its superficial fanfare, allowed me to set aside time to realign myself. Goals and aspirations are relatively easy to establish and can be acted on during the routine of working life, but self-reflection tends to be that heavy fog you never quite want to peer through. I’ve foundContinue reading “the great puzzle.”

the ninth circle.

Visual descriptors of betrayal as a metaphor have often been derived out of the concept of passion, given that double crossing someone conjures up feelings of anger, resentment and cries of retribution. Realising that we have been wronged produces a surging injustice which is much more physical than other hormonal responses that we may experience.Continue reading “the ninth circle.”

i can’t breathe.

Feelings of numbness and injustice have collectively resurfaced following the tragic death of George Floyd at the hands of the Minnesota Police Department. Instances of police brutality should be becoming less common given the increasing awareness of the discriminatory treatment of citizens of colour, but it still continues to pervade the shared minority experience. EventsContinue reading “i can’t breathe.”

smoke and mirrors.

One month ago, the word ‘coronavirus’ was nothing more than a rogue addition to my lexicon that had barely any meaning to me. Fast forward to now, and it has been the dominating voice of conversations and collective pandemonium. What was once an abstract idea tucked away in the Far East has now adopted anContinue reading “smoke and mirrors.”

faceless killer.

I have been reading Arthur Schopenhauer’s, ‘On the Suffering of the World’, and have been quietly astounded as to how readily it has conjured up a fresh perception of the human condition. Even a serial optimist such as myself is carefully guided to connect the dots, revealing what is already quite evident; the futility of humanity’sContinue reading “faceless killer.”